- LOVE: My friends and family rallied creating a care team for me and my puppy who I needed to be by my side but could not care for. People will show up to care for you that you never thought would, and in some cases never even knew prior to your diagnosis. AND people who you thought would be there are not. Because they, for reasons of their own just can’t. Choosing not to judge why who showed or not, allowed my mind to stay focussed on the love both present and distant. Love heals.
- TENACITY: I took control of my treatment, demanding to be seen and even staging a sit in to get an MRI earlier. (I brought cookies for the staff!) In Canada we are blessed with universal health care but that sometimes means the demand on the system is high. If you can’t advocate for yourself ask someone to. The SMILING squeaky wheel gets the grease.
- COMMUNITY: See number 1. I trusted people to care for me, and they did.
- COMMUNICATION: I let go of my ego and asked for what I needed, and did so in advance of those needs where I best remembered. I took someone to my appointments to listen and record for me – it messy technical stuff sometimes, and even when it is not, often it is so overwhelming you don’t hear or remember what is being said.
- MEDITATION: I have trained my brain to listen to my mind. Keeping or ditching a thought is a learned skill. Being an experience meditator enabled me to let go of worrisome and scary thoughts, and trade them out for positive and helpful thoughts. And wildly enough, that included those thoughts we call ‘pain.’ When the meds would not do it – I could. It’s all in your head you know!
All of which leads me to share with you the first thought that entered my head when I heard the word cancer:
“Holy crap! There must be a blessing in this somewhere.”
Seriously. And before you roll your eyes know that I tell you this not to impress you, but to impress UPON you, that learning to manage your thoughts is a learned process that can save your life – literally. Years of practice, including years of training my brain to notice gratitude (Choosing to become that glass half full guy, or as my dad would say, halfway to a new beer!) trained me to instinctively look for the good – and in my language I call that looking for the blessing.
When I most needed not to turn to the darkness, be scared and panic, my well-trained brain served up a thought I had been practicing for years. And wow, that not only feels good, it possibly saved my life.
I hope the toughest part of my journey is over. And one of the ‘blessings’ in all this is having been there done that, I am eager to support others who may have to face this journey. So if you are facing cancer, or any other tough medical diagnosis let’s talk, I want to be part of your community and support network.
I have the greatest job in the world. My job is to love my clients and share both my wisdom and the wisdom of the hundreds of people who have sat with me on their journeys.
Judgement free love creates authentic relationships. Authentic relationships are magic.
Yes, love heals.
PREVENT CANCER! My cancer was caused by the HPV virus. Almost everyone in North America has this virus. Some strains of this virus can cause cancer, as it did in me. There is a vaccine that prevents 9 strains of this virus, and possibly cancer. GET YOUR VACCINE NOW – and please talk with your children, family and friends to help us all prevent unnecessary cancers. Vaccines work.
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